I’m not sure how I feel right now.
Today is my Mom’s birthday and we had a nice time. I mainly played with my niece who is super well behaved for a 5 1/2 year old. My brother took her and I on a tour of where he works (also where we ate) which was lovely and actually really cool.
Both him and my Mom cried at dinner, I just kept playing with my niece and pretending not to notice.
It was a weird day… I think I’m fine but not 100% sure. I’m frustrated with my fiancé which doesn’t help. He didn’t go to work today because he was too tired after his vacation time off.. sometimes I worry he is going to lose his job but I also trust him to know his bosses and workplace like I know mine.
I kept repeating to myself today “be a compassionate witness” and it actually helped me stay uninvolved in the drama.
I wasn’t going to drink today – both my parents started at lunch – but then I decided to at my moms dinner. Regretting it now. Not sure I will make the 5 days. I would have to not drink the rest of the time I’m here.
Whatever. It’s fine.