I have a phone call with A today that I cancelled and then un-cancelled.
She’s inevitably going to ask how I am. And honestly? I have no fucking clue. Absolutely zero.
I feel like I’m on the positive side of things right now but I can’t tell you about most of the time I’ve spent here. I know the last few days have been positive but if you were like “what happened last Monday or Tuesday” I have nothing.
I can’t find that centre ache, can’t access the girl on the stairs, and I’ve basically been perma-drunk since I landed.
It’s going to be interesting. I wonder what she’ll do.