I don’t wanna and you can’t make me.

I am VERY child like today, very teenage “I do not want to so you can’t make me”. I’m thinking about adult things too, though. About money and time commitments to therapy. About how I don’t feel super safe in my therapy relationship right now. About giving up. 

I’ve realized I need to cut my therapy expenses at least in half, possible more. So this means not seeing her every week. Which also means dropping down to an hour every once and a while, maybe forever. My new therapy budget is $500 max a month, and I need to figure out what that looks like.

I can tell you what that looks like, it sucks. 

I think I’ll stick to me every other week plan of an hour and a half. Also, I find it ridiculously amusing that I definitely DONT want to go today but am lamenting giving up time with her. 

WTF self, can you just sort yourself out please?

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4 thoughts on “I don’t wanna and you can’t make me.

    • I second what Staystrong says, I also hope that, even though it’s hard right now, you’ll stay with the process of healing. I know it seems like it will never end and you’ll never get better, but if you stick with it, you WILL come out the other side, So many others, including myself are learning from you as you continue this journey. Draw strength from us if it feels like you yourself don’t have any left.

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